| There once was a girl.... |
[Jul. 30th, 2006|03:21 am]
Curiouser and Curiouser
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... from New York?
I dunno where I was going with that.
It's been a long time since I updated. I've gotten a couple of emails inquiring as to if I was okay. I am assuredly, okay.
I got really deep into my school work for the last quarter of my associates. Which is now finished.
I am now waiting ot hear from the University of Washington if I got into the four year degree program I want. I won't hear for like another 2 weeks. It's killing me.
Somewhere along the way I turned into someone who needs to have a plan. Weird.
The person I was co-running the Mage Sphere on Denver with, has more and more gradually slipped out of my life. He's currently on break right now trying to sort his shit out. I gave him until the end of September but.. I'm not hopeful. I've had to do some serious restructuring in my own head, in order to continue on there, but I think I'm over that hump. Hopefully. I dunno. It was very heartbreaky on many levels, but.. I'm just not sure I'm ready to fully talk about it... If I ever wil be.
I've had good things going on in my life, and bad ones. People who I felt loved me, thought would always be there, who just suddenly dropped out of my life without a word as to why, and act as if nothing's odd about the fact that a few weeks ago they were proclaiming to love me, and now, barely interact with me at all.
I've had people who I never expected to care as much as they do, admit that they care a lot.
It's been a wild few months. A really wild few monts.. but I think, I think that I'm coming out of my hole. Coming out of my defensive crouch. I was fucked over. By a couple of people. But shit happens and we square our shoulders and go on eh?
And I achieved a major life goal. I got a degree. Admittedly it's an associates, but it's something that I -completed- without self sabotaging, even admist some people seriously letting me down. That's pretty cool, if only on a personal level.
Anyway. I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm okay! Because I am. And it's highly likely, if you're reading this.. I miss you. and I wanted you all to know that too.
-me
"Desire begins in the mind." " It's the wanting that keeps us alive." -Paola Franco in Dangerous Beauty |
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